it's getting louder in my mind.
i can see your lips moving but you're so far away,
so far away.
i've learnt to block you off and out.
i am not here.
you can't see me.

don't scream at me,
don't scream.
there's already something taking over in my head.
there's nothing you can do,
for yourself or for me.
don't scream.

spinning.
the world spins and i'm only standing here,
somewhere, anywhere,
quiet and motionless.
the world is spinning and my open arms can't touch
can't touch anything.


tomorrow i'll fly.
asphyxiate and fly.









somewhere,
anywhere,
nowhere.

down the stairs to the door.
erasing what i had written on the walls
and telling the story all over again.

talk to me, they talk to me.
if you can't see through my eyes then you can't stay to watch.

all the doors are closed.
see through, see through.
i'm not searching. i'm not even tired.
i see my shadow run across the room
then come back.
go and then come back.

i'm standing here,
nowhere. don't scream.

quiet. they're searching,
and i'm not even tired.

fall to the floor.
my shadow is running.
restless.
but i'm
about to
sink through.