Thursday, October 15, 2015
should i go where i drown
one of the careful places now destructed
only a few walls left
almost no floor
i can tell you everything with one look
i find my thoughts (to be) as powerful as actions—
ah careful there! little walls left
and i don't want it because it never made me happy
i couldn't say anything
and no one likes quiet
should i walk just along the fence
be where i went when i was younger
i swear i felt the pain then too—
i just didn't know what it was
more stairs to the same floors
i find my world as painful as this world
and all i can think of is the waves
over and over and over and over
all i can think of is
how hard it seems for you to listen
my skin is too thick but not thick enough
different light
the night goes in but never goes out
it never expands
i find my thoughts as strong as actions
careful— the tide may turn
do you know my words
cold walls
cold hands from pressing my palms against the stone
my whole body embrace(s) it
with eyes closed i feel you close
i see how far you are
should i drown in purple waters
keeping you from the rain
should i dive in orange waters
show how fire can be rain
while i think about the waves,
the waves,
again