edit: había copiado cualquier cosa en lo del 13/11. ya lo arreglé ~
[cuaderno 16 + notas]
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[?]
it was never me
i was never me
fill the hole left in my soul
when you took it away
i want someone new
only because i miss you
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[?]
you lie when you say you don't lie
and i was lying when i said i'd lied
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[?]
cada tanto
sos un corte
en el pecho
el ardor
de cuando algo roza la piel
cada tanto
pero sólo
cada tanto
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[13 11 11]
i am not who i want to be
but who would i want to be if i wasn't who i am?
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[23 11 11]
the night is strangling me
i try and get nothing
i don't blame you, i blame my veins
does this poison run through yours too
if you think about it for a second?
what is the night doing to you?
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[24 11 11]
oh remember when i used to get lost in the forest
remember when i was sunlight and shade
and the night at the same time
you're from another world and that's why i like you
but i also know that once you built a little house near mine
without either of us noticing
i can't define what it is about you-
i wish i could see you today
make the stars brighter
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[6/7? 12 11]
i try to create something small
i have to forget the things that i've done but mostly
i have to forget what i hate about what i've done
change your mind
waste my time
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[6/7? 12 11]
i haven't been able to say a word in what feels like years
my teeth are ice and my tears are blood
but i won't let them show
i don't mean anything by the word 'okay'
most of my days are grey so where are your eyes
i never waited for you but i always did
i want to know more about the world and less about me
i don't mean anything by the word 'maybe'
except that i'm not there
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[13 12 11]
how comforting is it to say "i don't want to"
how comforting is it to say "i'm lying"
you can scream but they won't feel your lungs
there was a time when i wondered what their blood tasted like
now i only want to see us all drained
can we all be empty
every word i say is another knife
every thing i do is another fire
can we all be cold deserts
ice
white
where is the beauty of the night
i've asked before but you never replied
i can hear you but i can't feel your hands
your heart
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[21 12 11]
las cosas no significan
más que la necesidad de que las noten
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[28 01 12]
i died again today
i smothered me before i could learn how to breathe
i am going to wake you up even if that means that you'll hate me
i died again today but i smiled when i hit the ground
i can count my steps
so many things at once
i am dancing
with myself
i'm asleep
when i'm awake
i'll wake me up even if that mean that you'll hate me
"i'm not being myself
so i can remember who i am"
but oh how the day went by
fast and heavy on my shoulders
and how their voices pierced right through my stomach
i died again today
and i think that for a second
i came back
