"i'll create something,
i wish this night was all for me


you inspire me
as my words expire


this is my masterpiece


i'm gonna create something you can't break




is it friday already?
thank god i don't have a life
on the other side of this road

there isn't a door to close anymore"




except then i walked in and i couldn't be me,
the air was thick as it's always been.


i can't stay here waiting.
i need action.
i need only me surrounding me.
"leave me alone!"


[i'll bite my tongue because all i really want to do is bite yours]




i came in and it went out
of me like a scream
but you'd never hear 'cause you're too busy talking
about something i won't listen to either

but you won't notice
because you're too busy speaking


jumping around and wasting around
the sweat's gotta be your ink
the mess is gonna show
but after it's well hidden
till i gain control


you're a freak but you fit so well
years of training aren't for nothing
you're bored and anxious but you fit so well
speaking calmly as you stare




the best and the worst
the bitter and the cold
what you forgot
and "what's going on?"




i know you better than yourself because i know your worst part
the one you can't hide and you'll never see
'cause it's in everything you do
it's all inside you and all around you
and it blurs your eyes
when you try to define
who you are

and so we stand and so we stare
and so you turn your back
but i won't come and find you
i won't surprise you because that's what you expect

(my mouth is shut,
dry from screaming the truth
when no one can hear me
surrounded by walls
made of all my mistakes

and the windows i look through
are just the things i never had
and they're getting blurry too
when i try to decide
who i am)

we betrayed ourselves and there's something we can't deny
we don't want to find out that things could go wrong
even if we do it right, and so
we betrayed ourselves and everyone else
and so we stand and we walk
away
again
as it runs through our veins

"i know we share something
and it'll always come down to this".




boring
disappointing
overwhelming

ending. right here. again and forever.