[24 05 09]
yes, i get it, thank you.
i may screw up a lot but it's all part of the process, right?
yet there are some things i can't deny.
"look at me,
look for me,
look after me."
flying free is good but sometimes i need direction.
i might be missing the point.
it all melts down too quickly.
perspective changes so fast, even if i feel i've seen everything so many times
in so many ways-
not enough.
"i can predict the next carcrash",
the dust settles.
i open my eyes so slowly.
sometimes i don't think i could ever wake up.
i know you can see it in my eyes.
but sometimes you'd just rather not look.
it's funny how it all comes and goes.
but they only see a part of it and so they stare
but don't bother to ask.
my eyes close so slowly
i sometimes don't think
i can ever truly sleep again.
enjoy the simple things.
i can't stop dreaming and hating.
i can't stop loving.
(going back to numb
is so tempting.
but i've decided
i can be better.)
it all happens so fast while i change so
so slowly.
sometimes i think i could never dream again.
but i think i've decided
that maybe
i could be better.
expectations kill.
some surprises bring you back to life.
some words are useless but
sometimes one word is all you need.
destroy me or take my hand.
but don't you dare walk away.
i wasn't lying, it's just that
sometimes i forget who i am.
feeling like i'm late again.
comparing myself to everybody else,
it really doesn't change a thing.
comparing myself to who i used to be,
well it reminds me
this ride is too slow
but i'm still here,
and i keep moving-
but sometimes i need direction.
sometimes i need to feel it in my skin.
in my hands.
the earth in my feet.
i hope you don't see it in my eyes
if you'd rather not ask
or stay to listen.
flying free is good but sometimes i need a home
and new places to explore
without being just a shadow
of what's so long gone.
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i can't believe how much i've learnt and how much i still have to learn.
how many paths i've walked, all that's still waiting for me
and all the things i'll never see or feel.
